People talk about being "strong". I hear, "you are so strong" a lot. I know it is meant as both a compliment and a way of encouraging me to remain "strong" (whatever that means). It is not that I do not appreciate people believing in me. I need people in my life who have my back. We all do. However, it all makes me feel a little uncomfortable. I wonder, if I express fear or sadness, will I no longer be "strong"? I wonder how our society…

As we do every week, my husband and I went for a ten mile pre chemo run on Monday. It had snowed over night and was cold to start, but the snow was truly beautiful. I snapped this picture of Pikes Peak from the car on the way to the trailhead.

I had the week off from chemo this week. Physically I felt ready for it. After three weeks of medications being pumped into my body, I was tired. When I say tired, I mean so tired that the bags under my eyes are truly too terrifying to document. Still, it was my goal on my week off to try to enjoy life as much as possible. I ran every day. I ran by myself, I ran with my husband and I ran with friends. I ran the Santa Fe trail. I ran at…